The Cup Half Empty

One of the problems I face as I dive in the soical internet fiesta, is that I never seem to be good enough, alot of information, alot of action, and I find my self more of a passive reader, than a real contributor to the society, to the network.

It always seem I have not gone too far, did not read too much, did not know too many, maybe the network suppose to empower me, helping me to mend my faults & my gaps.

From the positive point of view. I suppose to be completed, complemented, and taught by the people around me.

But why can't I shake this feeling, this side feeling, that by exposure to this experience I feel less not more, I feel passive not active, I feel ashamed of my pity shares to humanity.

You see people of artistic senses sharing their vision, people with good souls sharing insights & inspirations, and people of science sharing knoweladge, and you just can not shake the feeling of you being on the sidelines.

Between me and you, inspiring articles and media that I get expose to, make me more depressed, strong word, I get more demotivated than inspired, I do not know but deep down I just keep beating myself for being so passive, so inconsiderate, so defective. And I feel like the pressure is adding on me, as the bar of  Social interaction & human contribution keep raising up, I just can not follow any more.

And I can not help but to watch and tell my self just another idea gone.